Thursday, May 26, 2022

In this issue

  • Baby Think it Over

    Being queer comes with responsibilities: the pressure to be more steadfast in my convictions than my straight friends, to reinvent relationship models, family structures, kinship networks even if it …

  • Embodied, Explosive Worlds: Giada Scodellaro’s Some of Them Will Carry Me

    The central event of the first story in Giada Scodellaro’s debut collection, “The Cord,” is so shocking that I’ve been thinking about it for days.

  • Like Mother

    Time can mean grace for survivors of sharp ends. Like, how one afternoon, god meant finding your eyes. I’m trying to say thank you for teaching me how to quit arching away from the glass, …

  • This is Tradition

    Music was serious to me — and so was anger.

  • Evidence

    With their hands clasped and knuckles squeezed white, the newlyweds descended the church steps. Flashing cameras froze the tossed rice in midair. Later that day at the crime scene, when the detective …

  • The Date

    We’re Facetiming from our apartments. I’m up in Inwood, happy that my housemates aren’t home but anxious they might return and overhear our conversation. Angie is in Carroll Gardens where she …

  • You Can’t Go Wrong with Chicken Parm

    When I ask him what his favorite kinds of pretzels are, he says rods. I tell him those are better than sourdough, but nothing beats traditional. He asks me how I define “traditional” and before I …

  • Fugue

    The summer my grandmother’s fugues started, my mom was working two jobs, one as a nurse at St. Joseph’s Hospital and another as a freelance secretary in a small translation house that sent her …

  • Down in Yellow

    Either way, whatever the city’s doing, it’s enough to change the color of the sky to this bone-white dome, the color of talc, and if they can take the blue out of the sky, they can take something …

  • Pas Encore

    The violinist made a little speech. “All music,” he said, “concerns life and living.”

  • The Rules for Watching

    Ever since Ramona debuted her prosthetic leg at school, she’s walked the school halls with her head a little higher.

  • Yukari Kneeling in My Mother’s Garden, 1994

    We had been sent out of the house to collect turnips. I was thirteen and Yukari was ageless, I thought then, as anyone above twenty-five seemed ageless to me...

  • WHEN MY MOTHER DIED

    My friends don’t come over to help me / sort through my mother’s things. / The ashtrays. The bills. The navy blue suits. / No one brings me a home / cooked meal. I don’t belong

  • GOING TO EUCLID

    I swear / he yelled at me like I had plans / to set the field on fire in my sports bra

  • Mother of Tomorrow

    The dogs are bored. The children are bored. I was never / a child

  • Carrie Buck

    I birthed her. And when I think back it is like / a nearly drowned head cutting the water’s surface.

  • Every single one

    People are afraid of my memory and they should be.

  • I Dreamed I Was Venus de Milo

    A scatter of crows came to me / and I could not refuse them

  • On Trying to Have a Child

    Days I can’t feel you, I dive my body / into the deep end, pluck golden leaves / from the silty bottom, nearly drown

  • Emily Dickinson Takes Off My Clothes

    She’s always opening up / spaces in me.

  • Self-Portrait as Mother as Nature Documentary

    The shoebill pesters its mother for a drink, says David Attenborough.

  • EXPLICATION OF THE POET’S BREASTS

    I can’t write about breasts without thinking of damselflies stinging the surface of water.

  • Autopsy

    My father / carried me often like a dead deer // on his shoulders up the stairs to bed, / my arms and legs gripped before his body, // my fallen neck bobbing

  • Remnants

    The book of Ezekiel opens / with a windstorm.

  • Still Life of Goat with Junipers, Palace Walls

    I drank the creek water until my eyes, until my eyes were prayers too.

  • semi-autobiography as SNL castmember

    as i hover above myself thinking about our fathers / how they were ushered from the least to best known borough / how they were fed so soberly into the moloch’s mouth

  • Self-Portrait as the astral emergency you’re fielding on facetime

    I’m on the moon / your favorite place, how encouraged you were I left / my safety stars

  • Fruit 4 Fruit

    I’d always wanted this, I just didn’t know / to give it a / name.

  • If You Aren’t Busy I Think I’m On Fire

    Every Sunday, I practice saying no in three languages.

  • Prince Shakur’s When They Tell You to Be Good

    In his award-winning debut memoir When They Tell You to Be Good , author and activist Prince Shakur vividly captures and decodes lived experiences that are undeniably his—coming-of-age as a queer, …

  • Myth-making and Myth-breaking: An Interview with Jai Chakrabarti

    Jai Chakrabarti’s fiction has a striking orality to it, a tone that emanates from his characters’ psyche and subtly permeates an entire story. On a 2022 panel discussion with Hannah Tinti, the …

  • Beginning after the End: Allegra Hyde On Craft, Catastrophe and Collectivism.

    In her newest collection The Last Catastrophe , Allegra Hyde tracks ideas of  apocalypse and collective action from an intergalactic finishing school to a rehab  center for internet addicts to a …