“she broke down and let me in”
playing at the café in Venice
at my computer i squint
my coffee is cold and a hooded dude
beside me looking also at my screen
“if you’re going to san francisco”
i’ve never seen my mother cry
without also crying
mirror neurons
ancestral cue
unutterable sun
baristas
hooded guys
encircle me
& they sing
& sing
until a maniacal laughter
about which there’s something French and dark
like my mother’s time in France
bathing in the kitchen
looking at the English channel
& i chug the coffee
& i run to the sea
the hooded guy remains with me
& “all across the nation such a strange vibration”
i require quick synaptic vigor
prayers for the dead
Californian liturgical glance
i require snickers and sour patch kids
jolly ranchers and Godiva truffles
chocolate milk and sneakers
“strange vibration” of the hooded guy
in my throat urging me now to consume
more saltwater whatever will desiccate
i’m accidentally smiling at him
so i do it again i’m smiling at him
so i do it more but i have to go
“to get set up with the spirit in the sky”
Technically Feral
in Hollywood
near the oracular canyon
at the start of fire season
i looked into the eye of a suspended
possum & yelled
into her mouth
that light stretching over
to X out a madness i looked
at my deficient reign
quest for fullness freakily
Black Cherry Vanilla seltzer
fizzing over miniature cakes
down my throat some octilinear perturbance
faux snow seeming to dive
at The Grove in illumined flurries
like the hair of an animal technically feral